i...cant

words can not describe the AMAZING sex I had.

Just mind blowing....

and no...it wasnt with tat.

I think I'm done....

I'm done with Tat, I don't think I have the patience to fucking deal with this. Last week, I didn't hear from him because I remember he mentioned that he was planning a big May Day demonstration on Immigration Reform, which was why I wasn't freaking out.

So he sent a text on Friday explaining to me that he was super busy and that he was going to call me on Sunday to chat.

Great.

However, Sunday came and went without a phone call. Now was I pissed? not really, because this is the second incident where he said he was going to call and he didn't. This latest incident has left me feeling put out because frankly I'm horny as hell and I'm not even sure if I should fucking bother sending a text since there is a fucking chance that it'll go unanswered.

I can't get rid of this sneaky suspicion that somehow he's either a) met someone else b) or he's not interested in hooking up anymore. Now with "A", its well within his rights to do as he please, but one thing I REFUSE to deal with, is being put on the fucking sidelines while you play around. I've dealt with that with BOTH Fucky and Nerdy, and I refused to put up with that shit again. So yes, the gloves are coming off because I *do* plan on asking him if he's having a change of heart about our situation because a girl is feeling neglected and wondering when the fuck am I suppose to have sex again. I sent him a funny video, so who the fuck knows when he's going to respond....what the fuck ever dude.

So yeah, he's got until fucking Friday then....he's gone.

Sorry!

My birthday in one word.

AWESOME!

I had a wonderful lunch with my girls, then we went to a street fair where I devoured chocolate-dipped Oreos and....

DEEP FRIED OREOS!!!!!!

Oh man, it was beyond awesome!

More details with photos to come soon!
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Happy Birthday...TO ME!

My Birthday wishes....

1.) My acceptance letter for school....CHECK

2.) A new job....CHECK

3.) A new handbag...CHECK

4.) Zoya's Sparkle collection....CHECK

5.) Clarisonic Mia....*crosses fingers*

6.) Philosophy Purity Made Simple....CHECK

7.) Post B-day booty from Tat....yes!

An explanation....

After going nearly two weeks without sex from Tat, I decided that I needed to get a back-up penis in case Tat was too busy. So, this past Tuesday I went on a date with Stoner Tom in hopes that he would be a worthy back-up. Now I can admit that I was extremely horny that day because it was almost a week since the last time I saw Tat and I had no idea when I was going to see him again. So when I finally met Stoner Tom, I was immediately attracted to him, he was TALL, BROAD, and had MUSCLES, everything I like in a man.

We ended up going for drinks and walking around Williamsburg, where we ended up at his place. I was beyond horny at that point and needed him to put me out of my misery, and...he didn't.

It was terrible.

From start to finish, it was horrid.

During sex, I thought about Tat, how badly I wanted him, and how I wished it was him instead.

It was so bad that I faked orgasms just so he would stop, and of course he knew I was faking and called me on it. I ended up lying through my teeth but he didn't believe me. He wasn't a bad date, but he was so self- depreciating it was annoying. I had to constantly reassure him about his dick size(he would make jokes about how small his dick was), how pale he was, and how no one wanted to be in a relationship with him.

I needed an anti-depressant by the end of the night.

That whole experience made me appreciate Tat even more. For the longest time I was looking for ways to cut him off for stupid reasons, but after Stoner Tom, it made me appreciate his skills and what he does to me in the bedroom.

When I was going down on Stoner Tom, he was quiet, so quiet and it made me tense because I didn't know if he was enjoying it or not. On Wednesday night, when I was going down on Tat, the man could barely keep his mouth shut, I mean he was LOUD, he would groan, throw his head back and moan while telling me how amazing I was, and that?

made *me* feel good and made me even hotter.

So am I going to be looking for other back-ups? Yes.

I am going to be looking for them now? No.

I rather enjoy Tat while he's here and try to find someone else once he moves back to Chicago.

I'm going to ride that pony until the wheels fall off!

Ramblings....

After my horrible date with Stoner Tom, I was in need of a "quick fix."

Enter Tat.

And boy did he ever rectify my, um "situation"

I can't get over how bone chilling amazing it was. My mouth and ass was sore by the time we were done, goodness!
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UGGGG

Bad sex was had....

and no it wasn't with Tat....

this guy was just....horrid.

I need a tat fix....SOOON.