Running into a problem....

When me and tat started messing around, save for times Aunt Flo was present, we pretty much had sex every week.

Sounds ideal, right?

Then why the fuck am I going on week TWO with no sex?

See last week, I kinda understood, he was busy at work and he was going out of town that weekend.

But for the love of cock, I need him to be more proactive. I am the most understanding girl...up to a point.

And I've gone PAST my point.

I sent a dirty pic that went UNANSWERED and I'm left fucking wondering how often does he need sex? Does he like fucking me? Does he not want me anymore?

Words are pretty, but if you don't provide the action to back up the words, then what else is left for me to say?

I don't mind the mindless texting, what I *do* mind is turning into a born again virgin while I'm suppose to be consistently getting some ass from my supposed fuck buddy.

So yes, I'm looking to replace him or get a backup.

I don't give a shit.
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Wow.

It's offical....

I'm going back to school!

The search for grants starts now!
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Crunch time...

Me and tat are back on track...

Text sex/flirting with him is so much fun....

I've started seeing a therapist for my depression....

I haven't had sex in two weeks....I'm a born again virgin...

I'm thinking about doing acupuncture for my neck and back pain....

But cripes $45 bucks? on my credit card? ack!

Till next time!

*sigh*

I know I'm being impatient...

But, I hate men....

Tired.

I'm tired.
I'm beyond tired and it's his fault.

I wish I could make this post about him or about how he .....

But I can't.

On Thursday I have the biggest interview of my life.

Its my entrance interview for school, I've come so far to get to this point. From the devastation of the rejection letter after failing the exam the first time, to the joy of hearing I could re-take the exam again, to the extreme nervousness at having to take the exam over, to the happiness at passing the exam on my second try and now....

To the absolute dread at having to interview to get into the program.

I'm beyond nervous, beyond scared, I want to work on my questions but I'm seriously having a mental blockage, the answers aren't there. Why do I want to be a Rad Tech? Why do I want this so much? Every time I try to find the answer, my brain blocks the answer.

I'm afraid to answer the question, I'm afraid of not having the right answer. I'm afraid of having my hopes and dreams dashed, I'm afraid of the rejection letter.

Where do I go from here? From there? I asked the Universe if this was meant to be and they've led me to this point.

I don't trust it, no, I don't trust *myself*. My doubts and fears are weighing my down. If I can't answer why I want to be a Rad Tech, why should they take a chance on me? Why should anyone?
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Damn....I spoke to soon.

That
Damn
Tat Boy

*shivers*

Top notch my friend, top notch.

*sigh* at this point, I'm not looking to add anyone else to the team if he's going to keep giving me a repeat of....that.

I don't want to go into details, but all I know what that I was knocked out in the first round and close to tears in the second round.

So much so, the very idea of a third round made my eyes watered.

That fuggin good.