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Thanksgiving morning I woke up to the news that my baby cousin, my Chasey poo(age 1) spent the night in the hospital because he had trouble breathing. The night they took him to the hospital he was running a 104 degree fever and had a hard time breathing. The doctors initially thought he was infected with the H1N1 virus, but further testing proved that he suffers from asthma. As you can see from the photo, they had my pumpkin in a little isolation cage.

I hate this.

I spent Thanksgiving morning crying and praying that my little cousin was going to be alright. Chase and his older brother Bryce(age 2) are my mumsie only nieces/nephews so to say they are spoiled is an understatement! My uncle and his wife can always count on us for babysitting duties no matter what. I will cancel my entire weekend just to babysit them. We love those boys like they're our own.

I'm having a hard time on focusing, having a hard time giving a shit about anything at the moment. I talked to several of my friends yesterday and today and I can't focus. I can see and hear what they're saying, but the dots aren't connecting for me and frankly I don't care about anything right now. I just want to know he's going to be better.

That's my heart we're talking about. Everyone else is secondary, period.

I keep wondering if he's breathing properly at the moment, worrying about his breathing when he goes to bed at night or if the medication is working.

I don't think I won't be able to concentrate unless I know that my cousin is going to be ok.
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